Thursday, June 2, 2011


A friend of mine passed away today.

It's so weird to say out loud. I can't believe Terence is gone. I feel terrible that I've held a grudge towards him for so long & that that was pretty much my last thought towards him. I'm really, really sorry for that.

I've never experienced this before. I've never lost anyone close to me before.

I'm never going to forget hearing my Auntie cry out for him, telling him to come home, or watching her touch his dinner in the oven. This is just beyond heartbreaking. A completely new level of sadness. A tragedy.

How is this happening?
I can't get myself to understand it.

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

4. Bullet your whole day

Well wasn't really all that interesting, but I'll bullet it anyway:
-Woke up
-Checked my email
-Saw an email from JetBlue saying they have flights for $44 & $103 for 3 nights in Vegas, then started dreaming about that
-Realized that wasn't going to happen
-Took a shower, got ready for work
-Showed my mom me & Kim's awesome rap cover we recorded the other night

-rushed to work like a speeding maniac
-had a terrible sales day, but didn't really care
-counted the tills + safe wrong at closing & convinced everyone that we were missing $190
-didn't realized until after I got home that I was wrong & that we're actually OVER by $10, whoops
-went on craigslist to look for interior design jobs in Seattle
-made a goal that within the next 2 weeks I'm going to print out 15 resumes & go to Seattle with specific high-end showrooms in mind to hand them out to
-decided to write in my blog
-made this list