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I don't know why, but that's all I can manage to say when I don't really have the energy to do anything else about it. I hate when bad thoughts creep up & surprise-ruin your good day. The way you feel right before you go to bed is almost more important than how the rest of the day went.

Some resolutions to work on right now...

Alright, for some reason I've been kind of dead, a sort of "there.. but not really there" kind of thing. I don't like it, I'm sure the people around me don't like it, & so something(s) must be done. Having all the time in the world is perfect for working on things like this, so thanks Starbucks for giving me like no hours! (I'm not sure if I mean that, I'm just trying to make the best out of that situation.) Okay, so the problem is I'm not very present. My eyes are tired, my brain isn't functioning at top speeds, I'm lacking opinion, there's a lag, & I'm being overly laid back, boring even. WHERE ARE YOU VERONICA?!

Here is how we're going to fix this:
-Get some sleep at night
-Talk more, blog more, call people more, tell people about your day
-Start conversations
-Stretch & exercise a little bit every day
-Take pictures
-Get outside
-Stick to to-do lists
-Be organized
-Be honest
-Say things when & while you think them
-Stop trying to be in control of everything
-Don't think so much into things
-Stop living in your head
-Don't avoid feelings
-Be creative
-Try
-Throw yourself out there without knowing exactly what's going to happen
-Take risks
-Stop doubting yourself
-Stop being so awkward & making things awkward
-Have energy & life & love & confidence & personality
-Like & love yourself.


That actually turned out to be a bit more than I had originally thought, but that's alright. & quite a few of those were slight repeats anyway.

mini workout then bed.

Fortune cookie

"Your short term goal will soon be realized."

That's so weird! I was just thinking to myself that I need to figure some pre-FIDM things out. Thanks Kim's Teriyaki for an awesome & most needed fortune! :)




Now I have to pick out dresses for Shea to decide for me to wear to this ridiculous(ly awesome) "Monster Prom" thing tomorrow. haha.

Holy crap.

I'm bruised, & sore, & I don't own a turtleneck.

Hooooooly crap.
haha :)

Giggly

This is the picture I would have sent him... if I weren't totally embarrassed & retarded & girly.

Take that, 2008!

I don't have a whole lot of time to babble, but I just wanted to say:

I GOT ACCEPTED INTO FIDM!

EAT THAT, assholes who thought they had a big hold over me, people who couldn't see me doing it, & past thoughts of being sad & wanting to give up!

I'M MOVING TO LA!


I'm going to start being the best version of myself.

It's a new year!

Oh! Writing my new years resolutions down here would be a really good idea.
But I'm not going to.
Not right now, at least.

I am going to try to write here more, though. Just to reflect about my day, get little thoughts out, sort my mind out in a way my eyes can follow.

For today though, I just want to say that I got a bra fitting for the first time at Victoria Secret (only because all the bras I picked up to try on didn't seem to fit right & I kind of was like "uhhhh WTF?!") & it turns out I'm actually a 36D. Not 36C. Uhhm. When did my boobs get bigger? & why does it really not seem like they're that big?

Whatever.. BOOBS@!
haha.