I can't talk to my mom; she doesn't get people & will just end up bitching at me.
I can't talk to my dad, because I don't want to disappoint him with my bad news.
I can't talk to my "friends", because they blow ass at "being there" for me.
I can't talk to the boy, really, because I don't want to overwhelm him & come off as a total nutcase.
I can't really talk to my sister or my cousin, because, well, although I'm sure they'll listen, I'm not going to get any feedback I can use.
What do I do?